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misscthulhuJeez uhm. Yup. I uh.
Soooo we hung out yesterday and watched Heroes and hockey. Heroes makes you think. And I haven't exercised my mind in SO LONG so it was a relief to be able to do so again. I worked out the entire plot of the first season by the first couple of episodes - which apparently blew his mind. It's an interesting series and I'm glad he showed it to me.
By game time I was nodding off, so he let me come lay down next to him. I won't lie, I was hoping he would. Nothing sexual happened - and I wouldn't have anyway.
Since I mentally relaxed around him, I stopped trying to hold back my thoughts and feelings and wham I crashed into this wall of physical desire that disturbed me. Some months ago I had a crazy dream that some man was nuzzling my face or something and he had a very, very short beard. Looking at Simon well, he had the same thing. I was like why yes I do in fact want to touch that. I didn't let myself do so but man it was tempting. VERY TEMPTING good GOD. I'm a terrible person right? For being so terrified of physical contact nothing felt gross about it. I'm pretty sure I felt his feet touch mine and I normally LOATHE feet.
WHY AM I OKAY WITH THIS?
I can't wait until I go to work tomorrow night. We have the same schedule. :/
Soooo we hung out yesterday and watched Heroes and hockey. Heroes makes you think. And I haven't exercised my mind in SO LONG so it was a relief to be able to do so again. I worked out the entire plot of the first season by the first couple of episodes - which apparently blew his mind. It's an interesting series and I'm glad he showed it to me.
By game time I was nodding off, so he let me come lay down next to him. I won't lie, I was hoping he would. Nothing sexual happened - and I wouldn't have anyway.
Since I mentally relaxed around him, I stopped trying to hold back my thoughts and feelings and wham I crashed into this wall of physical desire that disturbed me. Some months ago I had a crazy dream that some man was nuzzling my face or something and he had a very, very short beard. Looking at Simon well, he had the same thing. I was like why yes I do in fact want to touch that. I didn't let myself do so but man it was tempting. VERY TEMPTING good GOD. I'm a terrible person right? For being so terrified of physical contact nothing felt gross about it. I'm pretty sure I felt his feet touch mine and I normally LOATHE feet.
WHY AM I OKAY WITH THIS?
I can't wait until I go to work tomorrow night. We have the same schedule. :/
